Raevelyn's World

2006-01-15T23:45:00.000-08:00

Book List Update
My Book List 1.Triumph & Heartbreak :The Shawn Michaels Story(Finished 1-15-06)

By Aaron Feigenbaum & Shawn Michaels

2.Cheating Death, Stealing Life: The Eddie Guerrero Story(Finished 2-4-06)

By Eddie Guerrero

3.Favre

By Brett Favre, Bonita Favre, With Chris Havel

4.Adam Copeland on Edge

Adam Copeland

5.Postively Page: The Diamond Dallas Page Journey

By Diamond Dallas Page
6.I'm Just Here for the Food: Food + Heat = Cooking
By Alton Brown
7.I'm Just Here for More Food: Food x Mixing + Heat = Baking
By Alton Brown
8.10-Minute Clutter Control Room-by-Room
Hundreds of Easy, Effective Tips for Every Room in the House
By Skye Alexander
9.The Everything Wicca and Witchcraft Book(started 1-15-06)
By Marian Singer
10.Grimoire For The Green Witch
By Ann Moura

Thoughts to ponder............

2006-01-14T02:10:00.000-08:00

Thoughts to ponder............

I got this from a group I'm in and wanted to share it

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it.

FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

TEN.. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.

Going Nutty

2006-01-11T06:00:00.000-08:00

For the past few days I have been trying to find a new blog template and its driving me crazy LOL I can't seem to find one that I like enough...Who would have thought it would have been so hard damn..But hopefully by the end of the month I will have one picked out and in place remember I said hopefully so don't go holding your breath LOL...We got a few more movies that I wanted to see and still haven't yet MK brought Polar Express and The Brothers(Which I wanted to see)..So that makes 3 movies(Batman Begin,Fantastic 4 & The Brothers) that we have the I wanted to see and still haven't watched yet(yes I know I have movie issues)...I will eventually get around to it lol just like I will get around to choosing a new blog template

2005-12-22T02:45:00.000-08:00

Book List Update

My Book List
1.Triumph & Heartbreak :The Shawn Michaels Story(Currently Reading)
By Aaron Feigenbaum & Shawn Michaels
2.Cheating Death, Stealing Life: The Eddie Guerrero Story
By Eddie Guerrero
3.Favre
By Brett Favre, Bonita Favre, With Chris Havel
4.Adam Copeland on Edge
Adam Copeland
5.Postively Page: The Diamond Dallas Page Journey
By Diamond Dallas Page

6.I'm Just Here for the Food: Food + Heat = Cooking

By Alton Brown

7.I'm Just Here for More Food: Food x Mixing + Heat = Baking

By Alton Brown

8.10-Minute Clutter Control Room-by-Room

Hundreds of Easy, Effective Tips for Every Room in the House

By Skye Alexander

2005-12-18T02:16:00.000-08:00

Reading is Fundamental.....I HATED reading when I was in school but as an adult I love it immensely I just finished a book called Journey into Darkness by Michael Chiappetta: The Unauthorized History of Kane...Now for those of you who don't know who Kane is he is a WWE wrestler.... I used to be a wrestling watching fanatic lol I rarely watch it these days but I do like to read books about some of the wrestlers that I liked or that have peaked my interest and the store of Kane peaked my interest...It was a good book...I have decided that I am going to make a list of book I want to read between December 18, 2005 until December 18, 2006 and see how many I have read by this time next year I am going to post my list here and everytime I add a book I'll repost the list or read a book I'll mark it off when I'm done and repost the list wish me luck......

My Book List

1.Triumph & Heartbreak :The Shawn Michaels Story

By Aaron Feigenbaum & Shawn Michaels

2.Cheating Death, Stealing Life: The Eddie Guerrero Story

By Eddie Guerrero

3.Favre

By Brett Favre, Bonita Favre, With Chris Havel

4.Adam Copeland on Edge

Adam Copeland

5.Postively Page: The Diamond Dallas Page Journey

By Diamond Dallas Page

2005-12-13T22:30:00.000-08:00

Did you get up one morning and ask yourself why the hell did I bother getting out of bed ??? That seems to be every morning...There are somedays when I want to do is stay in bed under the covers and let the world pass me by...There are days when I am just so frustrated about my back that I can't even think straight hell some man came up with the idea to give women bigger boobs but no one can find a way to fix my back hmmmm go figure....I guess I am just tired and fed up at being angry and frsytrated with my back and there seems to be no end in sight to the pain....A much as I want to just give up and say fuck it and just give in I refuse to give up so that is why I force myself to get out of bed in the morning even though I really don't want to...that is usually how my mornings go after when MK has school or works an early shift I usually get up when he does and on the days he works a later shift or has a day off I get up before him....But I know as long as I continue to get out of the bed I will be ok when the day comes that I stop getting out of bed then we have a problem....

2005-12-06T12:51:00.000-08:00

Did you ever wanna just choke the living hell outta some people ( before anyone freaks out I am not thinking of killing anyone) to make the world stop and make all the ignorant people go away....I am so tired of people who call you asking for someone who doesn't live there and then you say no and they say are you sure well hmmmm last time I checked I knew who lived in my apartment...But what is so bad they say oh i'm sorry and them turn around and call again lol I hate that.....I got a call on my cell phone from the Seattle Times asking me if I wanted to subscribe to the paper and i'm thinking how the hell did you get my number but I just said no thank you I read it online and as she felt the need to tell me the pros to getting it delivered eventually all she heard was the dieal tone in her ear why can't people especially the ones who call trying to seel you shit just take no for an answer the time you spend harassing me you could have found two or three people to buy what your trying to shove down my throat....Then you have the lawn care people who seem to show up at the butt-fuck crack of dawn when your in the middle of that nice dream(you know the one with you and some hottie on the beach LOL or its you and your favorite Starbucks Caramel Frappichino w/Whipped Cream your about to take ur first sip) and your dream is ruined with the sound of Whirrrrrrrrrrr as they crank up the leaf blower right outside your bedroom window damn them damn them to hell couldn't they have started on the other side of the building.....And yes I know I have issues for anyone reading this I know that is what you are thinking as you shake your head and think man she needs to be commited or at least evaluated LOL.....Well before I can think of anyone else I would like to choke I tihnk i'll end this post here....Happy Holidays

2005-11-29T14:27:00.000-08:00

Weird Dreams....Ever had a weird dream you just can't explain ??...MK told me about one he had and lol it was interesting and as I was making fun of his he reminded me of a dream I had in the dream were Kangaroos.Squirels,Racoons,my Mom, Me & my friend Barb LOL now I have no idea what the hell I ate that night before but man that dream was freaky that dream happend a long time ago...I can't remember the dream but I remember the animals LOL...Now I am a football fanatic I once had a dream that Troy Aikman gave me Brett Farve's Packers helmet now that would have been ok if Troy played for the Packers and not the Dallas Cowboys I have no idea what that dream means or any of these weird ones...I had one lastnight that made me laugh this morning when I told MK about it I had a dream I was sitting in bed singing an Elvis song(not a Elvis fan) and MK is at the end of the bed getting dressed singing Sea Cruise LOL...So I say hey your singing the wrong song well he continues to sing and then starts to dance and then I woke up i'm blaming that on the baked fries before bed lastnight...Well thats its for weird dreams feel free to share some of your own

2005-11-25T20:36:00.000-08:00

Life..Or Something Like It...Well I hope everyone had a Happy Thanksgiving yesterday and for those of you who went shopping early this morning you are BRAVE LOL.....MK is at work so he can do his shopping while he is work...Saves me the trouble of having to do it we are almost done with our X-Mas shopping I even started finding gifts for next year..I am sooooooo NOT in the holiday mood I just want them over and done....
Well its raining here in lovely Washington it might be a good idea to ask for a boat for Xmas is what MK said to me a few minutes ago LOL...I think he maybe right I wonder how the moat around the apartment is doing...I have had this major headache all day I took a nap and tried to sleep it away and it didnt work go figure....My head hurt last week for about three days in a row I swear it felt like everytime I layed down it felt like someone was playing a drum solo in my head now its more like someone is smacking me on both sides of my head and behind my eyes LOL god make it stop ....Well that's it for now later all

2005-11-24T09:13:00.000-08:00

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE..........I GOT MUSIC ON MY BLOG

WILL BLOG MORE LATER YIPEEE I GOT MUSIC

2005-11-16T00:00:00.000-08:00

Doesn't No Mean No ? Today was like the day from hell...Its like everyone wanted something from me all damn day...No one wanted to take no for an answer so i'm guessing when I told a couple to leave me alone they while including a few four letter words here and there I am guessing they may have taken a lil offense to it...Its like they couldn't take no for an answer or something..To make matters worse I have a sinus headache from hell and it won't go away..I am so tired I could fall asleep right now as I am typing this the only problem is I wake in the middle of the night not being able to breathe and then I have to get up and leave the bedroom wait for my nose to open up and then go back to bed and then I can't go back to sleep and this is getting ridiculous...I feel like a walking zombie and its tiring the hell outta me well off to take some yummy sinus pills and off to bed

2005-11-15T00:54:00.000-08:00

I think I am addicted to watching QVC & Home Shopping Network LOL.....I enjoy watching it I have yet to buy anything off of everything there but i'm thinking someday I will I just cant see buy clothing that you have the option of Flex-Pay i'm sorry if I have to flex-pay some clothes I really don't need them what do they do if you only make your first payment but not the second...Are they gonna come and take it back...But they have some nice things on there and some things are just scary...I can't believe that Thansgiving is so close by me and MK are thinking of ordering a meal or something cause neither one of us are in the mood to cook I think I think I want Prime Rib rib for dinner I am tired of turkey and ham I want something different for dinner and prime rib sounded good....MK's mom asked us what we wanted for X-mas.....it was his life my list and a joint list lol I only had three things on my list I honestly have no idea what I want this year...I never know what I want I am the same way for my birthday..We are almost done X-mas shopping thank god LOL...Well this is gonna be short for tonight see you in my posts

2005-11-12T13:18:00.000-08:00

Well Friday me and MK cleaned out the bedroom closet I know it was suppose to be the kitchen and the hal closet but the bedroom closet began to bug me too.....I made MK go through his clothes cause half the things in that closet he either can't fit or doesn't wear...he kept telling me he didnt have anything to get rid of well lone behold after he went through his things we have one full trash bag of just his things to give to the Salvation Army LOL.....I think tuesday when MK is off we will finally get to the hall closet that take priority over the kitchen cabinets LOL..I will most definitly take pictures of the hall closet..Well that's it for now a short sweet post

2005-11-09T13:48:00.000-08:00

Clutter Clutter Clutter...Who hates Clutter.....I DO I swear after I clean and I turn my back the clutter seems to return LOL...Now we are in a one bedroom apartment and its just me and MK but things seem to multiply around here LOL...We have a big closet in the hall OMG everythme I open those doors I wanna scream LOL there is just so much shit in there and it just seems to grow and grow and grow...it seems no matter how many times we clean it out shit still ends up in there crowding it up.....

The other day I went looking for something in the kitchen cabinet and things fell all over LOL...I think its time to go through the closet and the kitchen cabinets again and give somethings away as far away from this apartment as we can get them... This friday me and MK are gonna clean out the kitchen cabinets i'll take a before and after picture LOL....We need to buy some rubbermade containers to organize the hall closet we need to do the same with the bedroom closet but its not that bad for now it can wait a lil longer not much longer but a lil longer.....Well i'm gonna go and enjoy some Low Fat Ben & Jerry's Frozen Yogurt Chocolate Fudge Brownie Flovored (YUMMY)

2005-11-06T23:16:00.000-08:00

One Night Stands...This afternoon a neighbor friend of mine who I will call Sally called me in a uproar about something that happened a few nights ago...Now before I continue let me tell you about Sally she is a 50 year old women trying to reclaim here 20's....Well I guess she went out a few nights ago to Muckelshoot(for those of you not in WA its a casino) well he was in his early thirties and I guess they hung out and had a few drinks and she invited him back to her place where obviuosly(SP) they had sex as if you didn't see that coming.........

So after it was all said and done she says he gets up and says thanx that was fun then looked at his watch and said Oh Shit I have to get home before my wife does....The next thing she says was I can't believe he was married he didn't say anything about that and he didn't have a ring only like well he didn't say anything about being married cause he thought you wouldn't give him any ass and well he took his ring off cause he went there looking for a piece of ass...She was like well I feel violated I'm like well I hate to tell you but it takes two its not like he forced you to sleep with him or he made you take him back to your place that was your own decision to do those things all he lied to you about was being married...I'm like why would you bring some man you just met home to your apt not knowing if he is a killer or a rapist or what not well he seemed interested in me she says....Well then you guys could have talked and exhaust numbers or something you could have gotten yourself seriously hurt...Then she says to me well I'm a big girl in size and in maturity so thanx for your concern but its not needed...My reply well if your a big girl and you can deal with it then deal with the fact the you fucked a married man and get over it don't play the victim cause I'm sorry your not the next thing I know she is changing the subject to something else...I'm sorry but if you gonna have a one night stand you need to take responsibility for it you can't blame the other person like you weren't there so if your going to have one then you have to deal with the consequences of your actions

2005-10-31T22:33:00.000-08:00

Happy Halloween & Samhain...I hope everyone's day was great well the Halloween party happened tonight let me explain to you why it happend Emma comes to me the other day and is like well the party is still on cause his WIFE is coming home and she messed up his plans to go out...I'm like wait he is married and your mad at his wife for coming home oh gimme a break...Your kidding me your ex husband cheated on you and here you are messing around with a married man doing the same thing with him that the chick your husband left you for did to you....she says this is differnt he says she doesn't understand him and she is always either working or doing stuff with the kids...And this shit he is telling you is probably ths same shit your ex told the chick he cheated with......Well if he isn't happy why not get a divorce......and she says well he said he is only staying for the kids well the damn kids are 15 & 17 ummmm i'm thinking at those ages they know about divorce..so I figure whatever it's her life i'm just tired of hearing her gripe about it...I have enough things going on in my life I really don't have time to worry about hers expecially when she doesn't seem to care herself....Thats it for now see you in my posts

2005-10-25T23:31:00.000-07:00

Liars,Dummies & Idiots...I swear people never seace to amaze me.....I kinda irratated this evening I have one serious pet peeve and its people who always start planning for things and then at the last minute they blow it off...I'm speaking of one person inperticular there is a lady in my apt complex I will call Emma ok at the beginning of the month a few neighbors got together and were talking about doing something for halloween for the kids around here now mind you she was the one who came up with the idea and was asking people to help so she has been asking everyone to do this do that and everything under the sun she has sent out papers telling the kids about it and everything so the kids are all excited and everything....So the bitch comes to me today and say ummmm Rae can I talk to you about something...I'm like sure so she says there maybe a problem with the party...I was invited to a halloween party by a guy at work and I was thinking of going but its the same day as the party here what do you think I should do...I'm sitting here thinking your fucking kidding me right...SO I tell her well this party was YOUR idea YOU asked all of us to help YOU got all these kids especially YOURS excited and now your like well I might cancel it cause some guy asked you to a party and you wanna know how I feel well Emma if you think of dissapointning all these kids over a man then your seriously fucked up and that is how I feel and then she was like ok and left I swear if she cancels this party and I ever see her I might beat the hell outta her so that was my day in a nutshell

2005-10-22T23:19:00.000-07:00

Its been awhile since I blogged here lol its getting kinda hectic to blog here and @ Yahoo 360 so I blog here for people who cant read my yahoo 360 one if anyone wants it let me know and ill pass it on to you...I have found something that has sparked an interest in me....Scrapbooking LOL I put some books on hold at the library....I got a Digital camera for X-Mas last year and I have barely used it lol so I need to start taking pictures....But FYI I suck at taking picutres so thank godness its digital LOL.....I got this scrapbooking catalog in the mail the other day and damn near had a fit they got some nice things in there lol....We need to buy a dock to print our pictures out on as opposed to having to go somewhere and have them printed out for us....Hmmmm well what else is new well tomorrow I start trying to lose weight instead of typing it all again ill just copy and paste cause its too much to write...Well last night/this morning when I went to bed I laid there and couldn't sleep...so I began thinking about things and I came to a startling revelation I am now 26 and if I want to live to be 28 I need to lose some weight....I'm a bbw and I'm going to be one for the rest of my life I have no problem being one..,I'm not losing weight for vanity I'm doing it for my health if I could be the size I am now and not have back issues and other health issues that are keeping me from living my life the way I want to which includes being able to walk ........

I'm gonna throw a lil story in here I have been utterly pissed for what will be two years in December my back begin hurting it started hurting my last year in Vegas...When I lived in Las Vegas I walked all over the place didn't care where it was I walked the strip just for fun and all that was taken away from me one night when I went to bed I woke up the next morning nothing different I went to get the mail and noticed a lil pain in my back but never thought anything about it so I came here to Wa in October and I could walk just fine.......It wasn't until December that the pain had gotten worse and started going down my leg and numbing both my lower back and right leg......So pretty much overnight I lost my ability to walk the doctors say it could have been the way I slept or something its funny you never know how much you take something for granted until you can't do it as well as you used to be able to But anyways back to my revelation......

I figured I would start my highway to healthy eating Sunday new week new start but you know what is really odd I actually feel like I can do this which I'm guessing will fade as the cravings for food I can't have kick in....I know this is gonna be the one of if not the hardest thing that I am ever going to have to do but if I want to live I need to do it and be serious about it I don't need to do this for anyone but myself.....I figure I'll be grouchy and a bitch for awhile after the major headache wears off from no caffeine I am going to stop drinking soda all together that includes diet so from now on its only water(YUCKY),tea,juice and crystal light(which I actually like)....I am going to have to seriously cute down on my sugar intake and things like that....I am going to try to sick to sugar-free and fat-free....I do drink but not very often so that will be my one treat every now and them but it will be in moderation...I talked to my doctor today when I went to see her and she recommended a nutritionist for me to see so I am going to take this one day at a time I know its not gonna be an overnight success but I'm gonna try.....So that is my revelation if anyone has any tips or ideas to help feel free to email them to me or drop me a comment I welcome all help....Thanx

2005-10-14T16:40:00.000-07:00

Waiting To Exhale LOL........Ok I just had to blog about this the other day of tv I was watching Waiting to Exhale which I have seen before....I swear that movie cracks me up and I know it wasn't made to be a comedy....It just shows that some women aren't smart in the situations that they get themselves into only two women in the movie weren't too bright.....If you are gonna get involved with a married man you can't honestly get mad at him when he cancels dates and things like that with you because HELLO...he has a WIFE.....I don't care no matter how many times he says I love you and I will eventually leave my wife....Just think of it as if he leaves her for you what is to keep him from leaving you for someone else ??????....Now before anyone tries to get mean and nasty and send me hate mail I have been on the end of dating a married man.....Its not something that I'm proud of but yes it was something I did durning my not so bright younger years....so i'm not up on my high horse or anything i'm speaking from experience...Now if you don't know that he is married then yes you have a right to get mad cause you were being lied to....But I can honestly say I never wanted them to leave their wives for me....My theory on that is if you are gonna leave your wife then we can stop seeing one another while you are getting a divorce and then you can get back together and i'm guessing if you were to ever say that to a married man his first words would be "What you don't believe me"....And i'm not saying only men cheat on their wives cause yes I personally know if one women who cheated on her husband and funny thing is I never though she would well when everyone found out everyone was surprised because her previous husband had done it to her....but its usually the people you would never guess I suppose ....Well that's all I have to say on the topic of married man and the women who love them lol...If you have any comments please feel free to share

2005-10-07T06:13:00.000-07:00

Sleeping Alot or Sleeping A Little......This has been me at least for the past 2 or 3 months either I can's sleep more then 2 or 3 hours or I can sleep the whole day and night away and god I dread going to the doctor to tell her about it cause who knows what she will say or do.....Well I got a call from the office anyways telling me that my medication was in and I can come pick it up so I'll make an appt while i'm there my luck she will be booked up for awhile cause she just came back from maternity leave.....Its just pretty much a route check up on my blood preassure she will probably have a fit cause it probably wont be that much difference casue I haven't been taking my meds so i'm guessing not much has changed somethimes I forget and it slips my mind god I hate taking pills.....But I will eventually get a system down so that I can remember to take them damn things......I am thinking about going to see a nutritionist also I need to do something I'd like to start losing weight I just gotta figure what to do about my back and my leg so I can get back to walking....I'll eventually talk to the doc about that too.....I really need to start doing something while i'm younger and have the ability to do this so who knows but when I eventually figure it out of course if will be plastered here lol.....

2005-09-28T06:51:00.000-07:00

What 26 and no kids how come ????...That has been the question people seem to be asking me alot lately....It always seems to go like this

Them:How old are you ?
Me:26
Them: How many kids do you have ?
Me:None
Them:Why not your approaching 30
Me:Well I don't know if I want any & if I have kids I want to be able to afford to care for them
Them:You don't wait till you can afford a child you just have them and make due
Me: I don't want to have to make due..I dont want to have to worry about how i'm going to put clothes on my childs back or food in their mouths.....

That comment usually ends the conversation gee I wonder why....

2005-09-23T15:39:00.000-07:00

This was sent out in a group I am in and I thought that everyone should read this

10 COMMANDMENTS OF LOVING A BIG BEAUTIFUL WOMAN

1. I won't be ashamed to be seen with you.

2. I won't be embarrassed by your size.

3. I won't hide you away out of sight.

4. I won't find you unattractive at any weight.

5. I won't ever find you un-sexy.

6. I won't allow others to put you down.

7. I won't tolerate you putting yourself down.

8. I won't take you where you can't be accomodated.

9. I won't let anyone show you disrespect.

10. I won't let a day go by without telling you how admired,loved and special you are.

2005-09-22T01:39:00.000-07:00

~~~Miami Ink~~~OMG I am hooked on this Tv Show on TLC(The Learning Channel) its called Miami Ink...I heard of it but never saw it until this week but I am hooked on this show...I am a tattoo freak I wanna get one but I hate needles...So I'm gonna have to grin and bear it because I want one....I want a lion with a thrown though its paw and a few other ones....I want to start a photo book of people's tattoo's I know various people with tattoo and a couple have said they would let me take pics of theirs and put them in a book maybe even post them online somewhere....Well as it progresses I'll let you know more..See you in my posts

2005-09-15T02:33:00.000-07:00

I know i've blogged about can men and women be just friends and I got a few responses some people say yes and some say no its impossible....Well I say yes they can be friends because I have a real good friend name Jon who lives in Colorado....we have been friends for atleast six months and he is a really great person we are able to hold a conversation with one another without sex coming up which seems to be very rare with most people you meet online these days...But its nice to be friends with someone who you can hold a conversation with no matter what it is....Its nice to be friends with someone who knows the boundaries of your friendship...Its nice just to have a friend who cares about you and your well being and nice versa.....So do I think man and women can be friends yes I do and it would be cool if everyone could have a friend like that

2005-09-13T13:23:00.000-07:00

For some reason I have been tired as hell lately...I have no clue what's going on I can barely stay awake half the time...No matter how many hours I get it just dont seem to do shit for me I could lay in bed all day and sleep the whole time I was there maybe wale up off and on a few times but within a few min maybe 10-15 tops im back alseep again and it sucks...I yawn all the damn time. I can sleeep for 8 or more hrs and still be tired or I can sleep for 4 or 6 hrs and still be tired. I can take a sleeping pill but why bother cause they don't work......So I guess next step is the Doctor oh yea what fun.....I'm thinking maybe its my blood pressure meds or something but I'll find out soon enough...I know i'm not anemic cause she already tested me for that so that isn't it....Maybe its that i'm lacking potassium cause of some of the Pills i'm taking...But hopefully soon i'll know

2005-09-12T03:11:00.000-07:00

Ok I missed a few days but I haven't been feeling well and on the note the next topic was suppose to be love but I think its gonna be religion.....I am Pagan?Wiccan & I swear when I tell some people that you would think I said my name is Satan & i'm here to steal your soul.....The first question they always ask is "Do you worship the Devil" I'm like What The Fuck no I dont we don't believe in the Devil....And them come more dumb questions that Ignore that is where I usually walk away or stop listening...I hate people who bad mouth things or hate things they know nothing about or because so and so saiad this it has to be true if you really wanna know if its true either pick up a damn book and read about it or ask someone who knows what they hell they are talking about....I remember the first time I brought a book about Wicca I was in the books tore walking around and I walked past this lady she was in the religion section and she smiled and I smiled back then she saw the book I had man I swear she jumped about 5 feet back I think if she couild have she would have ran away screaming waving her hands in the air yelling grab your kids and save yourselves letting everyone know there was a Pagan in the bookstore......All I ask is you respect me for my religon choices as you would want someone to respect you for your religion choices

2005-09-05T19:50:00.000-07:00

Ok we are all adults here or I hope everyone reading this blog is lol....Today's topic is Fuck Buudies....Now the definition of a F**k Buddy is someone you only call or see when you want sex nothing more you dont call them when you want to go to a movie or go shopping its STRICTLY for sex only...The reason I am bloggig on this cause lately this has been a topic among some friends of mines and me and I figured what the hell why not...So I asked a few people how do you keep your buddy from falling for you and what are the rules to a F**k Buddy relationship here were their answers.................................

1. Show no affection no hugging or holding hands. no I miss you.
2. Be upfront and honest let the other person know you are only in it for one reason(and its not to be boyfriend and girlfriend)
3. No spending the night once the deed is done and gone so shouldn't they
4. You don't ask where is this relationship going or talk about your future together
5. Don't get clingy or become a stalker calling every 5 min or emailing everyday asking when are we gonna see one another again.
6. No saying I love you.
7. No broadcasting to everyone that you 2 are F**k Buddies

I'm sure there are more & if anyone who is reading this cares to add anything plz comment and let me know....
I know people are probably people wondering why in the heck I am blogging about this and too tell you the truth lol SHEER & UTTER BORDEM LOL.......

Tomorrow Topic is Love...See you in the posts

2005-09-04T18:45:00.000-07:00

Before I have BBWs around the world hunting for me plz let me say I meant that SOME BBWs are like that not ALL BBW's...I'm a BBW so I know LOL

2005-09-04T18:42:00.000-07:00

For those of you who read this I know I should be the last person to have a blog cause I can't up to save my life but I swear I am going to try and keep going here....Hey its like I said when you don't have an exciting life its hard to blog about nothing now isn't it but I will try just bare with me.....Well today's topic is Fakes and Phonies...I was out somewhere there other night and as I sat and looked around I noticed I never saw so many fake and phony people in one room at one time...These are the same people who will be your friends to your face but don't turn your back or you will probably have a meat cleaver hanging out of it with their fingerprints all over it...Now I know its human nature not to like some people cause hell I know I don't and in the same breathe I know there are probably some people that don't like me but as I say I wasn't put here to please everyone but anyways why act like a friend to someone and treat them like trash behind their back bad mouthing them to people and when it finally catches up to the person bad mouthing whoever and will all the fact and the lies they still swear it wasn't them....I figure if you can talk it make sure you can back it up..A.K.A. Don't write a check your ass cant cash(you can thank my mom for the lovely metaphor she always said that when I was a kid) Cause know there are people that I talk to that don't get along but if I am friends with both of them I'm not gonna drop one person for the other...Also I have noticed that other bbws have no problem sabotaging another bbw in her effort to do something nice or god forbid a bigger bbw walks in with a very handsome man on her arm you always have other bbws bigger or smaller then her asking"Why is HE with HER"? Instead of being happy for her they are trying to pry into her business about how they met and things like that and its not cause they care it's because they want to turn it all around or be nasty becasue she has something they don't....I swear there are moments when I'm with some of these people that I feel like im back in highschool with all the gossip and backstabbing and jealously seeing who can up the otherand since you ahve to be 21 and over to be at these parties my guess is most of us have been out of higjschool for at least 4 or more yrs...Well thats my gripe on the topic for now & tomorrow topic is Fuck Buddies: How to have them and not fall for them(Joint Effort help from a friend)

Happy Birthday Soon -Whatever !!!!!!!

2005-08-02T23:53:00.000-07:00

Well in2 days I turn 26 (yea whatever)......LOL I really couldn't care less to be honest..now last month yea I was counting down the days and its seems the closer it got the more yea whatever its another day was all I thought....I began siting and thinking man I'm gonna be 26 and havent accomplish shit lol....But hopefully soon that will change I'm going to try and make it change. My health is getting a lil better I now suck down 15 pills a day and most likely more will follow but its leeping me healthy right......I want to eventually go back to school and get a job that will all fall in line as the health gets better....I am also still searching to make new friends lol the ones I meet online that I click with seem so far away lol.....I have been to a few more bbw parties and have had fun hopefully the more I go to the more people I will meet...I will try to blog more often but when you don't have much to say it's hard to blog but i'll try

2005-06-12T03:26:00.000-07:00

Ok Well it's been awhile since I blogged anad now I'm back with a question everyone reading this .....The question is Do you think men and women can be friends ???? Well my take on it is they sure can. I have had male friends in the past and I have some now even though I have a boyfriend....I get along with men alot better then women and I always have I know it seems young to say this but I really don't like some women they get on my nerves that are catty and overly dramatic and let me repeast this for any women who is reading this I said SOME women not ALL women are like that....I am not the type of women who likes to shop I am a women who love to watch sports LOL.....But I asked a few other people what they think aboout men and women being just friends and a few says it could happen some said it wasnt possible and one person lol said he would rather friends with benefits...So for anyone rading this tell me what your thoughts are...Well see you in the posts

2005-05-25T23:29:00.000-07:00

When lamps begin talking what does that mean.......Well here is another funny story from Mike's job a lil while ago a man callled and asked if he could return some lamps that he had brought there cause they were talking to him and trying to turn him into a lamp he is like they are sitting here trying to convince me to become one of them.....I tell you some people are just down right scary...Well I am going to finish a topic I started awhile ago and have for some reason been avoiding for awhile if you have been reading this since the beginning then you know about the blood saga well I am happy to say the blood saga is finally over yipppeeeee yea with the help of some pills and a shot i'm freeeeeeee lol no more going to buy pads every other day of the week......I know that makes Mike happy cause he was the one who had to go buy them yea I know he loves me especially if he will go buy pads for me at the store and some men wont do that......LoL...Well that's it for now see you all in the posts..

2005-05-13T20:40:00.000-07:00

Bad Breathe Equals Nerf Foam !!!!!! Yea I know this caught a few people by surprise and you just had to read well let me explain last week my friend called and was telling me that all of a sudden one of her twins they will be 2 in Oct but anyways back to the story at hand Peter is his name but she says he has bad breathe all of a sudden and she didn't know why so she brought him a toothbrush and some toothpaste and she tried it but it didnt work so we thought maybe it was cause of the meds he is on but come to find out its the other brother John who is on meds so they had an appt that week so she figured she would ask the doc so they go see the doc and she tells her what is going on and she tells the doc that she noticed something in his nose so the doc looks and she is like oh yea there and that is the cause of the bad breath so he had to have surgery the next day so they go in there and remove what was in there and come to find out it was some foam from a Nerf football.....Well he is all better now and his breath is back to normal who knew a lil thing in ur nose could do so much damage....Well that's it for now see you in the posts

2005-05-11T22:53:00.000-07:00

Help !!!! Tell me when i'm ovulating was all I head when I answered the phone it was my friend Iris she called becasue she had sex with her ex this would be the ex who left her with autistic child for some chick cause he wanted ready for the responsibility of a child and a relationship...so after I looked up the info she needed I asked her has she lost her damn mind sleeping with the man who left you and your daughter a man who don't give a rats ass about you..... but her response is well I needed it and here was here and i'm like you need kid like you need another hole in your head and btw have you heard os STD's and she is like well he wears a condom well huny condoms dont stop STD's and how do you know for a fact that he wears condoms are you there with them ???? She is like well no and i'm like ok well then you don't know and you sure as hell don't need another child considering you have no idea how you are gonna take care of the one you already have......But kowing her as well as I do I know it went in one ear and out of the other but I love her none the less......Well thats it for now see you in my posts.....

2005-05-07T17:25:00.000-07:00

Ok I know its been awhile since I have posted and I know I promised to blog more regulrly but I swear the days fly by...But on eith the post I finally ventured out and went to a bbw party well it was a Cinco De Mayo party/bbw party but man it was a blast I met some really great people and they were all friendly and everything I drank alot 16 drinks to be exact lol but I walked on my own accord and I stayed dressed and I danced and I don't dance lol I was pulled to the dance floor and forced to dance but it was fun a fun time was had by all LOL .....Well that's it for now
see you in my posts

First BBW Party

2005-05-07T16:01:00.000-07:00

I went to a cinco de mayo /bbw party and I had a blast I met some really cool people who were very friendly and easy to talk to

See more progress on: Go To A BBW Bash

2005-05-01T16:21:00.000-07:00

Well to continue with Dramatic Judy now she is griping about how she has no money to pay her bills and her rent but she has money to blow on cigarettes and sneakers and other crap she dont really need...so how her rent is going to be late and of course she will cry about it right when it is due....But what really kills me is she makes more then enough money to pay her bills and still have enough to live off of but she blows it and lives way beyond her means and then she bitches when she has no moiney like it just gonna fall in her lap but thats her problem not mines...Well thats it for now be back later with my take on basketball games...See you in the posts...

2005-04-28T19:17:00.000-07:00

Dramatic Judy as I now call her I swear to you man she drives me up a fuckin wall....Here is the latest with her....Well she joined an online dating group and started emailing this man she met on there and it just went overboard from there all she talk about him 24/7 like she was some teenager now mind you she has never met this man only talked in emails..so of course she cant respond to him cause she isnt a paying member so she begains griping about about all I need is someone to let me use their credit card to get a trial membership so I can email him and in my mind since she dont really know anyone and the other people she does know she says they cant get credit cards and shit im thiking she means me LOL...do I have dummy written across my forehead or bank of Rae ????? I think not well anyways she found a friend who let her use his card or whatever so she emails this dude and I swear she is acting like she found her soulmate and she dont know much about him just what he put in his profile so anyways I guess they email back and forth and what not and he asked her for a pic since he showed her one and she is like well im not photogenic and to most people that probably means you are hiding something or what not who knows but anyways she gives him her number and he calls and tbey talk and I guess he tells her I am gonna stop looking for people and just take care of the people I already met so she is all like thats a blowoff but I I dont care because the whole time we were talking he was laughing so I think he was either lying or nervous......Well hands are killing me ill blog more later...See you in the posts

2005-04-27T21:55:00.000-07:00

Bald & no Eye Lashes....Would I Look Funny ???....I am about ready to pull out my damn hair..I am 25 and have never had a hair cut and its growing like weeds now and its killing me I never knew black people's hair could grow so fast only with the halp of weave lol.....but anyways its down to my shoulders and I need to get it thinned out and evened out and layered sometimes I just wanna chop it all off but Mike says no you cant do that I love your hair long....I just wanna say here them you can have it so i'm on a quest to find a hairdresser I need a new do lol I think its time I want something nice and easy to manage lol....Now onto the eye lashes ok as I understand it eye lashes are there to keep crap out of your eyes well what is there to keep your eye lashes from falling in your eyes hmmmmm NOTHING !!!!! that's what. So im thinking if I pull them out then there is nothing to fall in my eyes right...LOL.... yea my luck it would be my eye brows next.....Well more drama is going on with Judy I'll elaborate more later....See you in the posts

2005-04-24T23:04:00.000-07:00

Yummy two for you and one me....Well for anyone who has ever a greedy spouse or partner well then you can relate to this story.....My friend Babs(named changed) had taken a nap only only to a rise and see that dinner was done her boyfriend Paul(named changed) had made three steaks two big ones and a small one...So she goes to eat and the only one left is the small one.....She asked Paul "Where is the rest of the steaks" and Paul replies "I ate them" And Babs gritted her teeth and tossed the little one that he saved her back on the plate and said "He can have it for lunch tomorrow....Well let me tell you more about Babs she has 7 of the cutiest kids ranging in ages from 13 yrs -5 mnths.....They are Jared,Travis,Dustin,Christian,John & Peter(Twins) and the most gorgeous lil girl Mizz Kalaya..... I am goddess mother to John,Peter & Kalaya...I have missed them growing up since I live in Washington and she is in Vegas...Well I guess that is it for now see you in the posts.....

2005-04-23T18:39:00.000-07:00

I went to this website & started a list of 43 things I want to do this is all I have so far

2005-04-23T17:36:00.000-07:00

I wonder how to go about changing my name and moving to a Foreign country where no one knows me and there is NO I repeat NO DRAMA !!!!!.....Hmmmm where shall I begin first off let me say me & June(yes June from the previous post) have been friends for awhile now we lived in the same apt place a lil while ago and that is how we met we have been friends for aout 3 or 4 years now and I love her to death but sometimes she drives me up a wall ..... she is 40-something and has more drama then me and i'm 25.......June hs been there too help me when me and my mom needed it & she knows that I am thankful for that but there are sometimes when I just wanna tell her to grow up, get over it and move on.....We all have been hurt and or fucked over royally by someone we loved and trusted but we eventually have to move on....I can forgive but I never forget...I haven't always been that way I used to hold serious grudges but as I got older and wiser and my health got worse I finally learned that by forgiving I get rid of so much of the stress that was making some of my health problems....But in my book by me forgiving you doesn't mean that I ever have to talk to you again it just means that I have let go of what has happened between you and me....I did that exact thing with my father don't get me wrong he wasn't the worse parent in the world but he wasn't the best either him and my mom never married when he found out she was pregnant with me he was so happy he always wanted a daughter he had three boys from previous relationships two from a marriage and one from a girlfriend that they gave up for adoption.....But anyways the two boys he had from the marriage didnt want anything to do with him cause he was never around I guess who knows ....So I guess since he finally got his girl he was happy.......NOT !!!! I guess like a child loses intrest in that new toy that cost you an arm and a leg my dad lost interest in me the same way....His interest popped up with some chick named Estelle(her real name) and her kids yes I didn't stutter her kids well anyways my mom found out and told him to hit the bricks he came by every now and then occassionally for birthdays... When I met her I didn't like her cause she felt a need to think she was my mother and I had to let her know I already had a momma a damn good one at that and I didn't need another one......

There is more to the Dad and I story which I will cover some other time that is a whole nother topic....But I will say this after all he has done to me wether helpful or hateful I do love him he is my father and he helped make me who I am today when I look in the mirror every morning I see his face in mines lol.....But my mom has always been my rock she has always been there when I needed her she has never said I told you so or anything like that even when she knew if something wouldnt work out its because of her that I know if I ever have to raise a child on my own I can she did it with three(me and my older brother and older sister from her first marriage) she managed to work and go to school and take care of us she sacrificed so much so we could survive and I love her for that...Well anyways since I have gotten totally off topic I will say bye for now....See you in the posts =)

2005-04-19T23:53:00.000-07:00

Good Evening...Well today was an easy day around here Mike & I stayed up all night and moved the living room around in the apartment it was so time......Its been the same way since we moved in here in august...Hmmm I dont think there is anything else to report on....Well Mike's parents are in Vegas on their way too Arizona to see her mom....and they stopped in Vegas for a few days and they saw my mom and went out to dinner @ Red Lobster and without ME !!!! I know how could they lol oh the Humanity LOL.......Well damn I have no info to share...Well Mike has a final this week and then he has another 8 week class I think he has a 1 or 2 left of school then hopfully he gets a job fast and off to Vegas we go LOL I miss Vegas so much LOL I always said I hated it when I was there and wanted to leave but now I miss it so much lol.....I miss my mom and my goofey friend Barb and I miss my God babes growing up.....Well I guess that is it for now....See you in the posts

2005-04-17T09:30:00.000-07:00

Can we say DRAMA 101.... I am in this graphics group on aol and everyone in there is all adults ages 25 and up mostly women but a few men here and there but anyways....You would think with all of us being adults there wouldn't be so much drama well WRONG !!!!....Well I was chatting with one of the women in the group-We will call June and she was like oh so and so (we will call Sally) deleted my send ok no big deal so she(June) asks Sally if she deleted it because it says she deleted the send and she(Sally) is like "No I didn't and this and this and that and that and she is getting all defensive ok so June was like ok my mistake AOL sometimes tells you that someone deleted something & they didn't....So then Sally emails June and says no I didn't delete anything and I don't appreciate you "Beating Up" on me for something I didn't do & I'm thinking damn when someone asking as simple question means your beating up on then..So now June's feeling are hurt and I had to give June a reality check I asked her -----1. Do you know this women personally as in off line ??? .......2. Are you two the best of friends or something ?????.....3.Do you feel like you asking her what you did warrents being called you"Beating Her Up" ??????.......She answered no to all those questions so I told her why do you care what she says granted it was wrong but take it with a grain of salt and move on she ain't gonna apologize or anything so let it go cause harping on it won't make a difference......I have been in this group for awhile and I can honestly say that I have never seen some of the most catty, backstabbing, troublemaking people in my life....Its all about the "he said " "she said" think and I'm like didnt all that end in Junior High School maybe even High School but it sure as hell shouldn't be happening now not with a bunch of adults.....I don't care if someone in thid group don't like me I'm not here to please everyone and i'm not here to makae everyone like me either you are on the Rae-Train or your not LOL......Well enough for now see you in the posts.

2005-04-16T14:50:00.000-07:00

Well I am just rambling off her cause I am bored senseless....I watched this movie the other day I saw it a few other times before the movie is called "A Walk To Remember" its also a book written by Nicholas Sparks same guy who wrote "The Notbook" I do believe..but anyways there was this poem in the movie where the Reverends daughter and her boyfriend were getting married and the Reverend read a poem and I fell in love with it LOL.....It was very beautiful..I don't know who the author of it is or if Mr. Sparks came up with it on his own but it's very beautiful and I had to share it

'Love is always patient and kind.It is never jealous.

Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish.

It does not take offense and is not resentful.

Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins,

but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse,

to trust,to hope, and to endure whatever comes...'

Well Mike and I have started planning different aspects of our wedding even though it won't happen for awhile we want to save up and pay for it ourselves so we can have it our way that way no one can say well i'm paying for this wedding so you will do certain things our way.....I don't think either of our families would do that but you never know LOL !!! I know I wanna get married outside at nightime that is all I really know for sure...Well done rambling for now see you in the posts....

2005-04-16T13:15:00.000-07:00

Ok well I sm tired of writing about the blood sage so I am gonna bring you to present day and end it there for now...anyways as I was sayng she was like i'm only gonna use this much well she lied at first she is poking around and cann't seem to find the hole LOL...man I was just about ready to say hey Mike you wanna go help her down there and she finds it....Yea so much for i'm only gonna use this much my ass I swear she jammed that whold damn thing in me I think I felt the bulb cam hit the roof of my mouth....So anyways she does that and then I'm done and fast forward to the next appt she tells me well they found nothing on ur uterus but they didnt see your ovaries and like the dork I am I look at her and say you mean Mickey Mouse without the ears ???? LOL...And like a dork she laughed and said yes I guess so....I swear that's why i like her BTW her name is Dr. Roe she is a real great doctor....but anyways we talk more and she doubles my bp dosage...fast forward next visit talk more about options to stop the bleeding she was talking t0 another doc about my case she suggested and IUD or a Depo Shot and the IUD is expensive so she has to get an OK from the higher ups to give me one and if not its Shots here we come so I have 2 new scripts one for another bp medication and one for insulin but I must say I am opne step closer to the end of the blood saga.....I go back on May 3rd so until then this is the end of the blood saga....See you in the posts...

2005-04-16T00:16:00.000-07:00

Well to continue my blood saga......So I call and get an appointment at the Health Center I had to wait two weeks for an open spot...So finally the day arrives and finally off to see a doc so I get there and fill out it seems like tons of damn pages so anyways well they call my name and I go in to the exam room and the nurse ask me what brings me in today and I tell her the whole story and she is like OMG you have been bleeding for that long well i know we can help you so she takes my blood pressure and tells me its high and I tell her well I have always had high bp and she says well we can take care of that today too....So the doc comes in and I tell her the the same story and she is actually paying anttention and she seems to actully care what I am saying so she takes my BP and its like 240/190 or close and she is like you are a walking stroke lol.....So next comes the fun of another Pelvic Exam Yippeeeee!!!!!!!!!!! So we do they exam thing and she tells me she thinks I have PolyCysticOvarianSyndrome......but until she knows for sure she dont wanna give me anything so I leave there with a bp medication and something for water retention.......and I have a appt for an ultrasound ok so lets fast forward to the ultrasound so me and mike are in the room and i'm laying on the table and she is pushing that damn camera into my pelvic area and i swear she is gonna rip though my damn skin and then she is like ok you can go wipe that off and go potty and then come back for the other half of the exam and i'm like second part ????? She is like oh i'm guessing she didnt tell you about the second part and i'm like well no and she is like well its a vaginal exam and I damn near fall off the bed from laughter cause I'm thinking WTF ???? So I come back in the room and she has this damn thing on the bed that I have to prop my ass up on so i'll be up on an angle....so i'm standing there trying to figure hmmmm how am I gonna get this ass up on that thing ??? So after a few minutes me and mike are waiting for the lady to come back in and she is like this is what I am gonna be using and this damn thing looks some long wide tube with a lil bulb cam on the end and she is like i'm only gonna use this much (-------.... Ok more later hand cramp..See you in the posts

2005-04-14T15:38:00.000-07:00

Take 1585 MG & call me in the morning LOL.....that is how many MG of pills I will have in my poor body soon...I have two pills for my blood pressure I take 1 twice a day and the other once a day, I have a water pill I take once a day and I have some insulin pills that I will eventually end up taking 3 times a day twice in the morning and once at night... I have to take one one a day for a week and then 2 once a day for a week and then three a day two in the morning and one at night...Well for those of you who are probably wondering damn why is she on all these meds well sit back and take a seat LOL......It all began on January 16, 2005 when I began my period or so what I thought was my period well I week went by still bleeding, two weeks went by still bleeding, well that is odd but my periods have always been wacky so no big deal ok so time goes by and it is now February 16 and guess what STILL BLEEDING....so I take my ass to the hospital and get to endure the comfy stir-ups and a pelvic exam man I swear she touched the roof of my mouth with that damn cotton swab....Soooo long story short they say well nothing is wrong and you can go home....Well two weeks go by and no I dont have a regular doctor as I am sure many of you are asking yourself sooooo here we go again in the weee hours of the morning me and mike pack our asses in the car and travel to another hospital so here we go again same drama everyone seemed to care until they found out I had no insurance so here comes the comfy stir-ups and the fun pelvic exam and I think with this one I saw the cotton swab come outta my mouth LOL.....so and of course the same diagnois nothing wrong but at least I got an IV with fluids from a nurse who had no idea what the hell she was doing and man she jammed that damn needle in my hand no warning or anything and as its hanging there she says to me hold still and im thinking hmmm hold still with this damn thing hanging from my hand and the piercing pain yea why dont you hold still while I kick you in the ass......So they move me to a larger exam room cause they needed the exam room so the same nurse with the needle comes in to ask me do you know where your cultures from your pelvic exam are ???????? And I look at her and say no and then me and Mike look at one another as if to say "What the Fuck ????? Hmmm why would I have them.....So anyways results come back and the doc is like well you are fine so you can go home so i'm like well bleeding for almost a month makes me ok lol I was discharged with "IRREGULAR VAGINAL BLEEDING" you would think with the word irregular in there they would care more guess not now if I hsd insurance then they would have been all over me like flies on shit....So I ask them for a referral and they give me one so later on the next day I call and ask the lady about prices and she says well we need between 300-500 dollasrs upfront and we dont have a payment plan and im thinking well guess you wont be seeing me then for damn sure......So I set out on a quest for some help I call Planned Parenthood and the dizty chick who answered the phone & was smacking her gum in my ear tell me well we can't do anymore then what the hospital did and i'm thinking great i'm doomed to live my life bleeding to death.....then there is a ray of hope she says well you can call the Kent Community Health Center and maybe they can help you...Well my hands are cramping so I will continue my blood saga later...See you in the posts

2005-04-12T01:41:00.000-07:00

Well here it is 1:21 A.M and here I sit blogging...I just got off the phone with my bestfriend of 11 years she is back in Mass and is having hard time she has a 2 year old daughter and her bf decided that he needed some time and space....AKA he didnt want the responsibility of a child and a relationship so he says he wants to get her music career off the ground and give his daughter a better life then he had well that was bunch of Bull Shit which I already knew and tried to convince her but anyways she calls me and tells me that he has found someone else and he hasn't been to see his daughter in 2 weeks & to top it all off her daughter was born prematurely with water on the brain and come to find out she has autism.....She is freakin cause she doesn't know what she is gonna do cause how she is on her own with no help from Jamie's ( her daughter) dad.....I just feel so bad for her because I am so far away & can't do anything to help her....Well off to bed I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow Yippeeeee !!!! ....LOL more on that tomorrrow after the appointment...Night All...See you in the posts

2005-04-11T18:57:00.000-07:00

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

2005-04-11T17:19:00.000-07:00

Need money for gas...try returning some Hot Wheels LOL.....This is a true story my finacee works at a store we will call MF's and where he is head of housewares well one night near closing a guy that used to work in his store that transfered to another store came in and went to customer service and wanted to return some hot wheels he had some how gotten...Well since he had no reciept all they would do is put it on a giftcard...Well that didn't sit to well with him and he bitched and complained well I work for this company & so on & so on and I guess the lady asked him well what is wrong with them and he says nothing is wrong I need the money for gas !!!!!!!........I swear I damn near fell out my seat when Mike came home and told me that....His job has some of the weirdest people working there.....There is a guy there we will call "Bob" he will jump in the pants of any women with two legs heck he would probably hop in the pants of a women with one leg and a cane cause he swears all women want him......To me he looks a lil crazy......Well that's enough about his job for awhile...See you in the posts

2005-03-24T02:01:00.000-08:00

Its 1:37 A.M. & here I sit at here at my computer hearing the squeaky buttons on the damn playstation controller that Mike is playing....I am so tired I can't think straight but I can't seem to fall asleep so here I am blogging and babbling at the damn crack of dawn & what am I running off with my mouth about now you ask well let me tell you the topic this A.M. is BOOKS !!! LOL I just read two really great books well they were really great to me but since I don't know what kind of books the people who are reading my post like I'm just gonna tell you about them and you can decide if you want to read them or not.... These books are written by the same author hi name is Mitch Albom... The first book is called The Five People You Meet In Heaven I'm guessing that you can probably tell what the book is about by the title but Ill give you a little explanation anyways its a story about a man who dies and the five the people he meets in Heaven some of them he knows and some he doesn't but he learns something from each of these people.....The second book is called Tuesdays With Morrie... This book is about a guy who is caught up in life and then he learns that his college professor that he was so close to is dying and he goes back to see him....Two very very good books that I recommend to anyone who likes reading....I am reading a new book now called The Four Agreements By Don Miguel Ruiz I haven't actually began reading it yet I have opened it and read the first page and the back cover its pretty much sitting on the night stand next to my bed staring me in the face.....Well that is all for now I am off to force Mike to get off that damn playstation so I can go to bed and get some sleep so night all and sweet dreamzzzzzz......See you in the post

Being A BBW in America

2005-03-22T00:44:00.000-08:00

You would think in this day in age that people wouldn't still look down their noses at overweight people like we are some kind of diesase or something....In some place its still seems like thin is in and fat is out well I hate to tell you but some men like a girl with some meat on her bones and some junk in her trunk LOL....People seem to think that people who are overweight automatically chose to be that way some might have and some didn't.. I know people who exercise all the time and they just can't seem to lose weight is it their fault ??? NO its not I do believe gentetic and other things play into it....Granted with being overweight comes health problems but you get that with being any weight...I'm not gonna sit here and stick my hand down my throat and make myself sick just to make myself thin..sorry no no ain't gonna happen the only time fingers go im my mouth is when I am flossing my teeth.....I have also known some people who have had eating disorders and there is nothing funny about that either.....but most people who end up with these disorders are people who have had weight problems of have people make snide comments here and there about their weight and they figure well before I get to be that size I am gonna do this or that and in the end sometimes they end up dead and who is to blame ????

Me & Mike

2005-03-18T11:49:00.000-08:00

I figured in this post I would tell everyone more about me & my finacee Mike. We met 2 years ago in a yahoo chatroom. We chatted in the chatroom for a few and then moved to a IM on messenger. We talked online for about 2 weeks everynight then we exchanged phone numbers...our first phone conversation lasted about 6-7 hours we chatted about everything under the sun and then some....we continued to talk everynight until he went on a camping/fishing trip with a friend of his for a week and man that seemed like the longest week of my life LOL...I didn't sleep that well because I wasn't able to hear his voice before bed...So he came back home and we started talking about him coming down from Washington to see me in Vegas....well this is where things got a lil hectic he had to tell his mom and dad I was black lol my mom knew and didnt care that he is white my family is one big melting pot lol......I guess they were a lil weary at first but trust me we all got to know one another and we all get along fine to his dad im brown sugar and he is my sunshine lol i'll explain that at a later date.....so anyways we decided that he would come down in June when he got done with classes at the college there I was so psyched....I knew that I already liked him and but I kept telling myself nothing could happen with us because we were so far apart and everything...so the day finally came when he would be in Vegas Well the first time I saw him face to face man I was hooked LOL.....He visited for 2 weeks and then he had to go back home....Man I balled like a baby when he left I knew in my head that a long distance relationship probably couldn't work but I had to find someway of convincing my heart of that........

About My Blog....What's In These Posts

2005-03-17T08:00:00.000-08:00

In these posts you will find my life,my trials and tribulations,my health,the love for the man who has made me believe in true love, my love for different things and my hate for other things...In these post you will learn about me,wether you love me ,like me,hate me or otherwise just can't stand me we all have our opinions and in these posts you will find mine...If you want to chat about something I have posted please feel free to email me or instant message me....See you in post.