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Thursday, April 28, 2005

Dramatic Judy as I now call her I swear to you man she drives me up a fuckin wall....Here is the latest with her....Well she joined an online dating group and started emailing this man she met on there and it just went overboard from there all she talk about him 24/7 like she was some teenager now mind you she has never met this man only talked in emails..so of course she cant respond to him cause she isnt a paying member so she begains griping about about all I need is someone to let me use their credit card to get a trial membership so I can email him and in my mind since she dont really know anyone and the other people she does know she says they cant get credit cards and shit im thiking she means me LOL...do I have dummy written across my forehead or bank of Rae ????? I think not well anyways she found a friend who let her use his card or whatever so she emails this dude and I swear she is acting like she found her soulmate and she dont know much about him just what he put in his profile so anyways I guess they email back and forth and what not and he asked her for a pic since he showed her one and she is like well im not photogenic and to most people that probably means you are hiding something or what not who knows but anyways she gives him her number and he calls and tbey talk and I guess he tells her I am gonna stop looking for people and just take care of the people I already met so she is all like thats a blowoff but I I dont care because the whole time we were talking he was laughing so I think he was either lying or nervous......Well hands are killing me ill blog more later...See you in the posts

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Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Bald & no Eye Lashes....Would I Look Funny ???....I am about ready to pull out my damn hair..I am 25 and have never had a hair cut and its growing like weeds now and its killing me I never knew black people's hair could grow so fast only with the halp of weave lol.....but anyways its down to my shoulders and I need to get it thinned out and evened out and layered sometimes I just wanna chop it all off but Mike says no you cant do that I love your hair long....I just wanna say here them you can have it so i'm on a quest to find a hairdresser I need a new do lol I think its time I want something nice and easy to manage lol....Now onto the eye lashes ok as I understand it eye lashes are there to keep crap out of your eyes well what is there to keep your eye lashes from falling in your eyes hmmmmm NOTHING !!!!! that's what. So im thinking if I pull them out then there is nothing to fall in my eyes right...LOL.... yea my luck it would be my eye brows next.....Well more drama is going on with Judy I'll elaborate more later....See you in the posts

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Sunday, April 24, 2005

Yummy two for you and one me....Well for anyone who has ever a greedy spouse or partner well then you can relate to this story.....My friend Babs(named changed) had taken a nap only only to a rise and see that dinner was done her boyfriend Paul(named changed) had made three steaks two big ones and a small one...So she goes to eat and the only one left is the small one.....She asked Paul "Where is the rest of the steaks" and Paul replies "I ate them" And Babs gritted her teeth and tossed the little one that he saved her back on the plate and said "He can have it for lunch tomorrow....Well let me tell you more about Babs she has 7 of the cutiest kids ranging in ages from 13 yrs -5 mnths.....They are Jared,Travis,Dustin,Christian,John & Peter(Twins) and the most gorgeous lil girl Mizz Kalaya..... I am goddess mother to John,Peter & Kalaya...I have missed them growing up since I live in Washington and she is in Vegas...Well I guess that is it for now see you in the posts.....

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Saturday, April 23, 2005

I went to this website & started a list of 43 things I want to do this is all I have so far

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I wonder how to go about changing my name and moving to a Foreign country where no one knows me and there is NO I repeat NO DRAMA !!!!!.....Hmmmm where shall I begin first off let me say me & June(yes June from the previous post) have been friends for awhile now we lived in the same apt place a lil while ago and that is how we met we have been friends for aout 3 or 4 years now and I love her to death but sometimes she drives me up a wall ..... she is 40-something and has more drama then me and i'm 25.......June hs been there too help me when me and my mom needed it & she knows that I am thankful for that but there are sometimes when I just wanna tell her to grow up, get over it and move on.....We all have been hurt and or fucked over royally by someone we loved and trusted but we eventually have to move on....I can forgive but I never forget...I haven't always been that way I used to hold serious grudges but as I got older and wiser and my health got worse I finally learned that by forgiving I get rid of so much of the stress that was making some of my health problems....But in my book by me forgiving you doesn't mean that I ever have to talk to you again it just means that I have let go of what has happened between you and me....I did that exact thing with my father don't get me wrong he wasn't the worse parent in the world but he wasn't the best either him and my mom never married when he found out she was pregnant with me he was so happy he always wanted a daughter he had three boys from previous relationships two from a marriage and one from a girlfriend that they gave up for adoption.....But anyways the two boys he had from the marriage didnt want anything to do with him cause he was never around I guess who knows ....So I guess since he finally got his girl he was happy.......NOT !!!! I guess like a child loses intrest in that new toy that cost you an arm and a leg my dad lost interest in me the same way....His interest popped up with some chick named Estelle(her real name) and her kids yes I didn't stutter her kids well anyways my mom found out and told him to hit the bricks he came by every now and then occassionally for birthdays... When I met her I didn't like her cause she felt a need to think she was my mother and I had to let her know I already had a momma a damn good one at that and I didn't need another one......

There is more to the Dad and I story which I will cover some other time that is a whole nother topic....But I will say this after all he has done to me wether helpful or hateful I do love him he is my father and he helped make me who I am today when I look in the mirror every morning I see his face in mines lol.....But my mom has always been my rock she has always been there when I needed her she has never said I told you so or anything like that even when she knew if something wouldnt work out its because of her that I know if I ever have to raise a child on my own I can she did it with three(me and my older brother and older sister from her first marriage) she managed to work and go to school and take care of us she sacrificed so much so we could survive and I love her for that...Well anyways since I have gotten totally off topic I will say bye for now....See you in the posts =)

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Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Good Evening...Well today was an easy day around here Mike & I stayed up all night and moved the living room around in the apartment it was so time......Its been the same way since we moved in here in august...Hmmm I dont think there is anything else to report on....Well Mike's parents are in Vegas on their way too Arizona to see her mom....and they stopped in Vegas for a few days and they saw my mom and went out to dinner @ Red Lobster and without ME !!!! I know how could they lol oh the Humanity LOL.......Well damn I have no info to share...Well Mike has a final this week and then he has another 8 week class I think he has a 1 or 2 left of school then hopfully he gets a job fast and off to Vegas we go LOL I miss Vegas so much LOL I always said I hated it when I was there and wanted to leave but now I miss it so much lol.....I miss my mom and my goofey friend Barb and I miss my God babes growing up.....Well I guess that is it for now....See you in the posts

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Sunday, April 17, 2005

Can we say DRAMA 101.... I am in this graphics group on aol and everyone in there is all adults ages 25 and up mostly women but a few men here and there but anyways....You would think with all of us being adults there wouldn't be so much drama well WRONG !!!!....Well I was chatting with one of the women in the group-We will call June and she was like oh so and so (we will call Sally) deleted my send ok no big deal so she(June) asks Sally if she deleted it because it says she deleted the send and she(Sally) is like "No I didn't and this and this and that and that and she is getting all defensive ok so June was like ok my mistake AOL sometimes tells you that someone deleted something & they didn't....So then Sally emails June and says no I didn't delete anything and I don't appreciate you "Beating Up" on me for something I didn't do & I'm thinking damn when someone asking as simple question means your beating up on then..So now June's feeling are hurt and I had to give June a reality check I asked her -----1. Do you know this women personally as in off line ??? .......2. Are you two the best of friends or something ?????.....3.Do you feel like you asking her what you did warrents being called you"Beating Her Up" ??????.......She answered no to all those questions so I told her why do you care what she says granted it was wrong but take it with a grain of salt and move on she ain't gonna apologize or anything so let it go cause harping on it won't make a difference......I have been in this group for awhile and I can honestly say that I have never seen some of the most catty, backstabbing, troublemaking people in my life....Its all about the "he said " "she said" think and I'm like didnt all that end in Junior High School maybe even High School but it sure as hell shouldn't be happening now not with a bunch of adults.....I don't care if someone in thid group don't like me I'm not here to please everyone and i'm not here to makae everyone like me either you are on the Rae-Train or your not LOL......Well enough for now see you in the posts.

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Saturday, April 16, 2005

Well I am just rambling off her cause I am bored senseless....I watched this movie the other day I saw it a few other times before the movie is called "A Walk To Remember" its also a book written by Nicholas Sparks same guy who wrote "The Notbook" I do believe..but anyways there was this poem in the movie where the Reverends daughter and her boyfriend were getting married and the Reverend read a poem and I fell in love with it LOL.....It was very beautiful..I don't know who the author of it is or if Mr. Sparks came up with it on his own but it's very beautiful and I had to share it

'Love is always patient and kind.It is never jealous.

Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish.

It does not take offense and is not resentful.

Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins,

but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse,

to trust,to hope, and to endure whatever comes...'

Well Mike and I have started planning different aspects of our wedding even though it won't happen for awhile we want to save up and pay for it ourselves so we can have it our way that way no one can say well i'm paying for this wedding so you will do certain things our way.....I don't think either of our families would do that but you never know LOL !!! I know I wanna get married outside at nightime that is all I really know for sure...Well done rambling for now see you in the posts....

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Ok well I sm tired of writing about the blood sage so I am gonna bring you to present day and end it there for now...anyways as I was sayng she was like i'm only gonna use this much well she lied at first she is poking around and cann't seem to find the hole LOL...man I was just about ready to say hey Mike you wanna go help her down there and she finds it....Yea so much for i'm only gonna use this much my ass I swear she jammed that whold damn thing in me I think I felt the bulb cam hit the roof of my mouth....So anyways she does that and then I'm done and fast forward to the next appt she tells me well they found nothing on ur uterus but they didnt see your ovaries and like the dork I am I look at her and say you mean Mickey Mouse without the ears ???? LOL...And like a dork she laughed and said yes I guess so....I swear that's why i like her BTW her name is Dr. Roe she is a real great doctor....but anyways we talk more and she doubles my bp dosage...fast forward next visit talk more about options to stop the bleeding she was talking t0 another doc about my case she suggested and IUD or a Depo Shot and the IUD is expensive so she has to get an OK from the higher ups to give me one and if not its Shots here we come so I have 2 new scripts one for another bp medication and one for insulin but I must say I am opne step closer to the end of the blood saga.....I go back on May 3rd so until then this is the end of the blood saga....See you in the posts...

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Well to continue my blood saga......So I call and get an appointment at the Health Center I had to wait two weeks for an open spot...So finally the day arrives and finally off to see a doc so I get there and fill out it seems like tons of damn pages so anyways well they call my name and I go in to the exam room and the nurse ask me what brings me in today and I tell her the whole story and she is like OMG you have been bleeding for that long well i know we can help you so she takes my blood pressure and tells me its high and I tell her well I have always had high bp and she says well we can take care of that today too....So the doc comes in and I tell her the the same story and she is actually paying anttention and she seems to actully care what I am saying so she takes my BP and its like 240/190 or close and she is like you are a walking stroke lol.....So next comes the fun of another Pelvic Exam Yippeeeee!!!!!!!!!!! So we do they exam thing and she tells me she thinks I have PolyCysticOvarianSyndrome......but until she knows for sure she dont wanna give me anything so I leave there with a bp medication and something for water retention.......and I have a appt for an ultrasound ok so lets fast forward to the ultrasound so me and mike are in the room and i'm laying on the table and she is pushing that damn camera into my pelvic area and i swear she is gonna rip though my damn skin and then she is like ok you can go wipe that off and go potty and then come back for the other half of the exam and i'm like second part ????? She is like oh i'm guessing she didnt tell you about the second part and i'm like well no and she is like well its a vaginal exam and I damn near fall off the bed from laughter cause I'm thinking WTF ???? So I come back in the room and she has this damn thing on the bed that I have to prop my ass up on so i'll be up on an angle....so i'm standing there trying to figure hmmmm how am I gonna get this ass up on that thing ??? So after a few minutes me and mike are waiting for the lady to come back in and she is like this is what I am gonna be using and this damn thing looks some long wide tube with a lil bulb cam on the end and she is like i'm only gonna use this much (-------.... Ok more later hand cramp..See you in the posts

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Thursday, April 14, 2005

Take 1585 MG & call me in the morning LOL.....that is how many MG of pills I will have in my poor body soon...I have two pills for my blood pressure I take 1 twice a day and the other once a day, I have a water pill I take once a day and I have some insulin pills that I will eventually end up taking 3 times a day twice in the morning and once at night... I have to take one one a day for a week and then 2 once a day for a week and then three a day two in the morning and one at night...Well for those of you who are probably wondering damn why is she on all these meds well sit back and take a seat LOL......It all began on January 16, 2005 when I began my period or so what I thought was my period well I week went by still bleeding, two weeks went by still bleeding, well that is odd but my periods have always been wacky so no big deal ok so time goes by and it is now February 16 and guess what STILL BLEEDING....so I take my ass to the hospital and get to endure the comfy stir-ups and a pelvic exam man I swear she touched the roof of my mouth with that damn cotton swab....Soooo long story short they say well nothing is wrong and you can go home....Well two weeks go by and no I dont have a regular doctor as I am sure many of you are asking yourself sooooo here we go again in the weee hours of the morning me and mike pack our asses in the car and travel to another hospital so here we go again same drama everyone seemed to care until they found out I had no insurance so here comes the comfy stir-ups and the fun pelvic exam and I think with this one I saw the cotton swab come outta my mouth LOL.....so and of course the same diagnois nothing wrong but at least I got an IV with fluids from a nurse who had no idea what the hell she was doing and man she jammed that damn needle in my hand no warning or anything and as its hanging there she says to me hold still and im thinking hmmm hold still with this damn thing hanging from my hand and the piercing pain yea why dont you hold still while I kick you in the ass......So they move me to a larger exam room cause they needed the exam room so the same nurse with the needle comes in to ask me do you know where your cultures from your pelvic exam are ???????? And I look at her and say no and then me and Mike look at one another as if to say "What the Fuck ????? Hmmm why would I have them.....So anyways results come back and the doc is like well you are fine so you can go home so i'm like well bleeding for almost a month makes me ok lol I was discharged with "IRREGULAR VAGINAL BLEEDING" you would think with the word irregular in there they would care more guess not now if I hsd insurance then they would have been all over me like flies on shit....So I ask them for a referral and they give me one so later on the next day I call and ask the lady about prices and she says well we need between 300-500 dollasrs upfront and we dont have a payment plan and im thinking well guess you wont be seeing me then for damn sure......So I set out on a quest for some help I call Planned Parenthood and the dizty chick who answered the phone & was smacking her gum in my ear tell me well we can't do anymore then what the hospital did and i'm thinking great i'm doomed to live my life bleeding to death.....then there is a ray of hope she says well you can call the Kent Community Health Center and maybe they can help you...Well my hands are cramping so I will continue my blood saga later...See you in the posts

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Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Well here it is 1:21 A.M and here I sit blogging...I just got off the phone with my bestfriend of 11 years she is back in Mass and is having hard time she has a 2 year old daughter and her bf decided that he needed some time and space....AKA he didnt want the responsibility of a child and a relationship so he says he wants to get her music career off the ground and give his daughter a better life then he had well that was bunch of Bull Shit which I already knew and tried to convince her but anyways she calls me and tells me that he has found someone else and he hasn't been to see his daughter in 2 weeks & to top it all off her daughter was born prematurely with water on the brain and come to find out she has autism.....She is freakin cause she doesn't know what she is gonna do cause how she is on her own with no help from Jamie's ( her daughter) dad.....I just feel so bad for her because I am so far away & can't do anything to help her....Well off to bed I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow Yippeeeee !!!! ....LOL more on that tomorrrow after the appointment...Night All...See you in the posts

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Monday, April 11, 2005

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

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Need money for gas...try returning some Hot Wheels LOL.....This is a true story my finacee works at a store we will call MF's and where he is head of housewares well one night near closing a guy that used to work in his store that transfered to another store came in and went to customer service and wanted to return some hot wheels he had some how gotten...Well since he had no reciept all they would do is put it on a giftcard...Well that didn't sit to well with him and he bitched and complained well I work for this company & so on & so on and I guess the lady asked him well what is wrong with them and he says nothing is wrong I need the money for gas !!!!!!!........I swear I damn near fell out my seat when Mike came home and told me that....His job has some of the weirdest people working there.....There is a guy there we will call "Bob" he will jump in the pants of any women with two legs heck he would probably hop in the pants of a women with one leg and a cane cause he swears all women want him......To me he looks a lil crazy......Well that's enough about his job for awhile...See you in the posts

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