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Saturday, October 22, 2005

Its been awhile since I blogged here lol its getting kinda hectic to blog here and @ Yahoo 360 so I blog here for people who cant read my yahoo 360 one if anyone wants it let me know and ill pass it on to you...I have found something that has sparked an interest in me....Scrapbooking LOL I put some books on hold at the library....I got a Digital camera for X-Mas last year and I have barely used it lol so I need to start taking pictures....But FYI I suck at taking picutres so thank godness its digital LOL.....I got this scrapbooking catalog in the mail the other day and damn near had a fit they got some nice things in there lol....We need to buy a dock to print our pictures out on as opposed to having to go somewhere and have them printed out for us....Hmmmm well what else is new well tomorrow I start trying to lose weight instead of typing it all again ill just copy and paste cause its too much to write...Well last night/this morning when I went to bed I laid there and couldn't sleep...so I began thinking about things and I came to a startling revelation I am now 26 and if I want to live to be 28 I need to lose some weight....I'm a bbw and I'm going to be one for the rest of my life I have no problem being one..,I'm not losing weight for vanity I'm doing it for my health if I could be the size I am now and not have back issues and other health issues that are keeping me from living my life the way I want to which includes being able to walk ........

I'm gonna throw a lil story in here I have been utterly pissed for what will be two years in December my back begin hurting it started hurting my last year in Vegas...When I lived in Las Vegas I walked all over the place didn't care where it was I walked the strip just for fun and all that was taken away from me one night when I went to bed I woke up the next morning nothing different I went to get the mail and noticed a lil pain in my back but never thought anything about it so I came here to Wa in October and I could walk just fine.......It wasn't until December that the pain had gotten worse and started going down my leg and numbing both my lower back and right leg......So pretty much overnight I lost my ability to walk the doctors say it could have been the way I slept or something its funny you never know how much you take something for granted until you can't do it as well as you used to be able to But anyways back to my revelation......

I figured I would start my highway to healthy eating Sunday new week new start but you know what is really odd I actually feel like I can do this which I'm guessing will fade as the cravings for food I can't have kick in....I know this is gonna be the one of if not the hardest thing that I am ever going to have to do but if I want to live I need to do it and be serious about it I don't need to do this for anyone but myself.....I figure I'll be grouchy and a bitch for awhile after the major headache wears off from no caffeine I am going to stop drinking soda all together that includes diet so from now on its only water(YUCKY),tea,juice and crystal light(which I actually like)....I am going to have to seriously cute down on my sugar intake and things like that....I am going to try to sick to sugar-free and fat-free....I do drink but not very often so that will be my one treat every now and them but it will be in moderation...I talked to my doctor today when I went to see her and she recommended a nutritionist for me to see so I am going to take this one day at a time I know its not gonna be an overnight success but I'm gonna try.....So that is my revelation if anyone has any tips or ideas to help feel free to email them to me or drop me a comment I welcome all help....Thanx

//Rae-N-Washington struck at 11:19 PM\\